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Read this story of young Girl.Jai Gurudev
Read this story of young Girl.
It tells How Lucky each one of us and why we should do Sudarshan Kriya daily and make others do.
At the time I did my first Yes+ course, I was just 16 years old. I was a 12th standard Medical student and had been suffering from clinical depression. Being a medical student, I was quite scientific and rational and believed that everything has a logic I could explain.
I was a topper till 10th standard but had become a poor student in 12th . This made me sink deeper into depression. My class in-charge was already trying to avenge me as I didn’t study chemistry from her coaching centre. My midterm result came just after I had completed my course and a parent-teacher meeting (PTM) was scheduled.
I had failed the Physics exam much like 90% of the class but the teacher gave me a notice that I’ll be expelled from BCM!! (Such notice was only given to students who had failed all the 3 exams).
Meanwhile it had only been a week of doing my Kriya faithfully as I wanted to test Avinash bhaiya’s 40 days challenge. When the notice came, it left me devastated and I knew I couldn’t control anything and that my parents won’t be able to absorb this shameful news. Unable to comprehend how to save myself from the guilt and shame, I decided to commit suicide as the parent-teacher meeting was just one day ahead now. It was an end for me. I gave my letters for my parents and boyfriend to my best friend and bought Lakshman Rekha (a chemical used to kill pests) on the way home as the chemist denied giving cyanide to a schoolgirl. It was Friday and a Satsang message yet again popped on my phone screen when I was alone at home (all ready to take the poison at night). As I dearly loved the two Satsangs I had been to, I thought of having one last good memory and decided to visit the Divine’s home.
During the entire Satsang, I kept my emotions and pain hidden and sang with others. After a short meditation, Neeru, a volunteer came to me and asked me what was wrong. I acted and tried to hide the truth, but was shocked about the way she understood that something was definitely wrong. This made me tell her the truth that I was going to kill myself that day and that nothing else in the world could save me from the dread that would happen at the PTM other than dying and getting all over with it. I still remember the way she calmed me and said “Guruji is there for you. You are doing the Kriya everyday, and he has become a part of you. If you hurt yourself, he will also be hurt. The PTM will not be tomorrow. You will see that for yourself.” She talked to me like this for so much time and all I thought was how can the strictest school with official orders postpone or cancel its PTM. Even the expulsion letter was right in front of my eyes. It was totally impossible for me to think that Guruji, whom I had never called out to in help or someone I had never even met will make this disaster go away. But I couldn’t show my doubts to my friend Neeru.
I agreed with her just so that she would not feel bad. I was sure that she was just soothing me so that I did not commit suicide. When I went home and did my Kriya, suddenly the Lakshman Rekha kept in front of me kept tempting me to commit suicide. I resisted the temptation, but still carried it the next day to school so that when it s 11 am and PTM starts, I can eat it and rest in peace.
I couldn’t believe my eyes and my ears when someone told me that the PTM had been cancelled!!!!! I had no logic or explanation for it. I tried to explain it so much (maybe I just got lucky etc) but finally I gave up and realised for the first ever time that -YES THERE IS SOMEONE WHO PROMISED TO TAKE CARE OF ME AND PROTECT ME FROM THE DAY I HELD HIS HAND UNKNOWINGLY. It was so shocking and so unreal and I felt grateful to the utmost, realising that I got way way more than I deserved. I was given a new life, and even my best friend who hadn’t done the course was in tears saying “I still can’t believe how he did this.”From that day onwards, a caravan of miracles just started happening in my life. The most difficult of problems
came and came and just doing the Sudarshan Kriya for 30 minutes everyday gave me the strength to tackle every obstacle !!!
Gratitude to Sri Sri for being the invisible force making my life only the best everyday and answering all my doubts and making my faith stronger
“YOU MIGHT FEEL LIKE YOU ARE FALLING BUT I WILL NEVER LET YOU FALL.”
JAI GURUDEV !!Viewing:-299
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